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Basically people writing blog would be share their happiness, sadness, talk about their life, human life, moral value and values and so on. Blog also can share on daily life such as yesterday i had meet a guys that i feel i very admire him because he had so much self confidence in him. i mean, wow!! me myself also can't have so much confidence. truly, it is a compliment to that guy, in the first time i saw him i had such admire feeling on him, he can speak such a good English and also well representative himself. LIKE HIM SO MUCH~~
Erm.. ok, back to my study life, is almost three years i had spend in hostel and uni life, sure i will miss this place although i hate this uni system. this is a place that i had meet so much friends, started of playing squash, traveling with friends and the place that had taught me well, make my mind open more wide. it is almost the end of my study life, just left half year. Actually i had no idea on where am i heading, i gonna do what or should stay in hotel line or not. i might gain few year experience from hotel line and will change a different job to see whether i am suitable to which one. one more month i would be heading to my practicum places, Penang. Although i had been this place for few times but i still not so familiar with the roads and places and hotel at there. Actually i am a bit afraid to this new places and have a thought that i do not want to practicum there. Fortunately i have Stephie that willing to have practicum with me along this six month, maybe our relationship would be more good^^. last but not least, i think i should thanks to her and appreciate what she had done for me. me myself i think i am the person that wouldn't appreciate someone unless i already lose him or her. this kind of attitude really border me and i hope there would be someone that can scold me up and make me realize the importance of appreciation!!! 

excited moment

once again is the boring life of mine. i wonder is it my communication problem or other where else. from the beginning of my study, i had rarely speak to anyone, the most that i speak too is also female friends. how pathetic i was. when step into this university, i had start to communicate but there is still having problem of it. The sense of humor are not in myself, i would like to make everyone happy if could. i often ignore my own feeling, press it deep inside me until it is to hard keep it inside. The main things that i really want to express are there is other male friends that willing speak to me, just like oh my god, did he speaking and chat with me just now? in my family would born with this perception on guys just speak to girl that is his girlfriends only, so i usually did not dare to step near or speak to guys. my life n my perception is set and it is just the thinking inside a box that set by my parents. how to say this, only Chicky woman will speak to guys. At the first is my hometown friends that speak to me at first, then is my senior. The special one is in the last sem i just meet this guys, i notice that he is really the a nice guy. honestly i have a unexplainable feeling with him, but i think in his eyes, every female friends is just normal friends only. i also meet one guy that with good communication skill with woman. haha. he also had girlfriends already and it make did not dare to step more near with him. my own feeling is easy to change, i doesn't know when what is the feeling when i had fall in love, i never do so. just that when a guy that treat me well, hear my voice, encourage me, i would think over. oh, what should i do. i had been thinking that if i move my step, would he reject me? i can't explain is this the feeling of fall in love? just that he really very nice. but i would think that i did not have the chance because come on, which guy would like a girl like me? i am fat, and not good looking but i saw fat girl can couple with thin guy... strange.. haha.. it just like in university had many ladies that would be better than me, how would he notice my present?

my exam (pao tang)

once again i still at kedah sitting for my final at semester 3, i use to feel that final exam is the most tough thing that i had ever been through every sem. this semester had a problem, that is flood happen in my recent places, kedah. The worst is at jitra. Because of this natural disaster, my final exam have to postpone until end of november. what a problematic system to our university(uum). they had postpone the exam date and my fren from west malaysia have to pay more on their ticket. I did not going back to my home town this coming holiday. i plan to go to port dickson and try to find a job at there. hopefully can find a job to work and earn more money for my daily life usage. my bank account is totally near to empty. i am very worried because my father will not every month give me the same amount of money. i wish to have more money if suddenly something happen, i can still solve it. i also owl many people money. plan to pay them on the next semester when my ptptn money come out. but that will be far away solution. i also hope that i could maintain what get for this semester. my final exam for this semester won't be worst, because of many theory that i have to remember. haiz.... i must study hard for that. gambateh on that... wan to graduate early.. hehe....

colleague come to kuching

for the 1st time my colleague come visit kuching from their home town. I feel so excited than them, its like " wau! i am inviting my fren to stay in my house , visit the places and taste the food in kuching" when i was step into uum, the 1st thing that impress me is the food, what is the world got that kind of food, it really scare me... but when i follow my fren back to her house, i realize that all the food is different from kuching, just like is totally different!! that the place that i learn my independent. try to interact with other people that usually i didn't speak much. when my colleague agree to follow me back to home town, i got shock. i think they might just play joke with me. but the day they book the ticket of airasia, i keep on thinking where i should take them to, where to start?! because most the places i might think that not interesting and boring like muzeum. They have a happy time in it, that is so surprise. i excited in bring them to try the food in kuching and prove that our food is more better than food in university. it kind of happy we spend time together and do all the shopping. although the time is a bit rush, but i think they have fun also. time past so fast that when i plan to bring them around and the time keep running up to their time to went to their home town. i feel sad because the time with them is most unforgettable and a lot of joy. when they go back to home town, my house return to lonely and boring. haiz.. although i wanted fren to come stay at my house and visit kuching, the money that i spend also many than i thought.

interview

As a uum student, doing my assignment for the english for hospitality purpose. lecturer gave us a task of interview and do the assignment. what the most piss me off is the hotel not even accept student to interview their hotel. what wrong with them? just want to finish my task only.. it is so hard? not even give people an opportunity to do things. do them feel some pity of us? one of the cases is a group go and already made an appointment with them, and also set the time and date. when the time has come.. the manager didn't accept them and want them to do interview at other places. what could this happen actually? so pity of them. we are working hard on the assignment but they just like playing with us.. the manager are irresponsible and wanted them go home? that is so rude. moreover, they shouldn't be busy because we had set the time and date at the first place. In the other ways that, emm... how should i says.. interview a job in a company also not that easy because we have to prepare ourselves to facing the interview, in the same class, the lecturer wanted us to have an interview with the manager in some sort of company. even thought that the participant that not performing well, but i think that is an experience that we can perform better when we are in the society. this should help us.. every interview session is stressing me and make me so nervous no matter at outside until the session finish... feel so stress although had been through many times of interview session.. this kind of feeling make me want to scream out loudly...

life

life is not easy as we though. for example, jus an example on working, u might hav many experience on 1 job, but wen u go 2 inteview a new job, facing a lot of new fren new people. u will never know tat how over come wif the ppl thr. R ur experience used at thr?! no... some ppl can be so evil tat we jus cant look at his/her face only. they r frenly n helpful bt they evil n not as good as we think it is. working field can make ppl stressing everyday... if u dont wan 2 think about it, life should still go on... as my part time job this year, thr r a lot of problem. i cant imagine tat got ppl like tat... say this thing, do another thing at the back of u.. wat the fuck,, gt ppl like tat??!! cant understand... is the society now r full of materiallistic?!

New job

found tat a new job... actually hoping tis job 4 earn more money... wanted 2 pay my uni fees... haiz... although i have the loan... life is not as easy as we thought.. can we expect what we want instead of wat had we choosen 4...