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Basically people writing blog would be share their happiness, sadness, talk about their life, human life, moral value and values and so on. Blog also can share on daily life such as yesterday i had meet a guys that i feel i very admire him because he had so much self confidence in him. i mean, wow!! me myself also can't have so much confidence. truly, it is a compliment to that guy, in the first time i saw him i had such admire feeling on him, he can speak such a good English and also well representative himself. LIKE HIM SO MUCH~~
Erm.. ok, back to my study life, is almost three years i had spend in hostel and uni life, sure i will miss this place although i hate this uni system. this is a place that i had meet so much friends, started of playing squash, traveling with friends and the place that had taught me well, make my mind open more wide. it is almost the end of my study life, just left half year. Actually i had no idea on where am i heading, i gonna do what or should stay in hotel line or not. i might gain few year experience from hotel line and will change a different job to see whether i am suitable to which one. one more month i would be heading to my practicum places, Penang. Although i had been this place for few times but i still not so familiar with the roads and places and hotel at there. Actually i am a bit afraid to this new places and have a thought that i do not want to practicum there. Fortunately i have Stephie that willing to have practicum with me along this six month, maybe our relationship would be more good^^. last but not least, i think i should thanks to her and appreciate what she had done for me. me myself i think i am the person that wouldn't appreciate someone unless i already lose him or her. this kind of attitude really border me and i hope there would be someone that can scold me up and make me realize the importance of appreciation!!! 

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once again is the boring life of mine. i wonder is it my communication problem or other where else. from the beginning of my study, i had rarely speak to anyone, the most that i speak too is also female friends. how pathetic i was. when step into this university, i had start to communicate but there is still having problem of it. The sense of humor are not in myself, i would like to make everyone happy if could. i often ignore my own feeling, press it deep inside me until it is to hard keep it inside. The main things that i really want to express are there is other male friends that willing speak to me, just like oh my god, did he speaking and chat with me just now? in my family would born with this perception on guys just speak to girl that is his girlfriends only, so i usually did not dare to step near or speak to guys. my life n my perception is set and it is just the thinking inside a box that set by my parents. how to say this, only Chicky woman will speak to guys. At the first is my hometown friends that speak to me at first, then is my senior. The special one is in the last sem i just meet this guys, i notice that he is really the a nice guy. honestly i have a unexplainable feeling with him, but i think in his eyes, every female friends is just normal friends only. i also meet one guy that with good communication skill with woman. haha. he also had girlfriends already and it make did not dare to step more near with him. my own feeling is easy to change, i doesn't know when what is the feeling when i had fall in love, i never do so. just that when a guy that treat me well, hear my voice, encourage me, i would think over. oh, what should i do. i had been thinking that if i move my step, would he reject me? i can't explain is this the feeling of fall in love? just that he really very nice. but i would think that i did not have the chance because come on, which guy would like a girl like me? i am fat, and not good looking but i saw fat girl can couple with thin guy... strange.. haha.. it just like in university had many ladies that would be better than me, how would he notice my present?